"a caterpillar doesn't just grow into a butterfly. a caterpillar must undergo metamorphosis, and a cocoon is where a caterpillar risks it all: enters total chaos, undergoes total rebuilding, and is born to a new way of living. only in taking the risk of entering that inert cocoon can the caterpillar go from dormancy to potency, from ugliness to beauty."

Sunday, November 14, 2004

the little voice

when i woke up this morning, i checked my celphone for new text messages and found only one. still sleepy, i sent a reply and then went back under the covers to sleep but...

the litte voice: oist! oist!
me: shhh... go away.
the little voice: oist! wake up!
me: just go away! let me sleep. puhleez. i'm still sleepy.
the little voice: hey, the sun's already up. wake up! what a lazy kid you are.
me: imp! i'm not lazy. leave me alone! my brain's in such a disarray because of you.

of course, the little voice didn't leave me alone. instead...

the little voice: hahaha! you think you're so cool? you had a grammatical lapse there.
me: goodness! i can't believe i'm having this conversation... you're mental!
the little voice: yeah, i am. so what? you still made a mistake there.
me: be easy on me, will you? stop bugging me with merely thought up grammatical lapse.
the little voice: it's not thought up. you sent "i can't watched..." rememberrrrr?
me: oh, you mean the reply message. no, i did not! you're just desperate to get my attention. now, stop this and let me sleep.
the little voice: our friend's gonna laugh.
me: my friend's not gonna laugh. if indeed i made a mistake there...
the little voice: i told you, you made a mistake there.
me: oh, come on. if indeed you're right, a grammatical lapse IS NO BIG DEAL! get lost! i just wanna sleep.
the little voice: yeah right. fool yourself. it's no big deal, i agree.

what a nagging litte voice! i ended up throwing away the covers to send another text message, somewhat apologetic over something i'm not really sure i did. after that, little voice seemed to have found peace so i was able to go back to sleep and had a second trip to dreamland.

the little voice: hello! wake up now!
me: oh no! stop prancing... you're not supposed to be here. not in my dreams!
the little voice: does it matter? i'm here. what now? wake up!
me: you're really such an imp!
the little voice: whatever! you're an imp yourself! you ought to wake up now. it's already 10:30 in the morning. wake up! wake up!
me: so what if it's already 10:30? it's sunday! go away. stop bugging me!
the little voice: you've been ignoring me all week!
me: ...just doing the right thing, imp.
the little voice: how could you? i gave you all the space you needed. now that i'm back, tsk...
me: what are you? who are you? my schizo self???
the little voice: hahaha, who me? your schizo self? you're mental!
me: now, i'm the one who's mental! know what? now, i think you're my schizo self...
the little voice: funny, if you think that way. i'm loving this. i'm really loving this!
me: that's it! that's it! goodbye! i'm outta here. see? i'm waking up.
the little voice: hey wait! don't leave me here.

and so, i got rid nagging little voice just by waking up. well, that's what i thought... because after hours of her silence...

the little voice: really a slow day, isn't it?
me: oh no! not again!
the little voice: you ought to do some organizing.
me: shut up! i already know that!
the little voice: i really like you when you're pissed off like that. you look so... you? yes, you look soooo you.
me: who says i'm pissed off?! you're such an imp! you ought to be exorcised!
the little voice: hahaha, pikon... but i do mean it. you really should do some organizing today ...and tomorrow, too. tomorrow's a holiday, after all.
me: i said shut up! you're merely stealing my thoughts.
the little voice: be kind to me. i'm actually trying to help.
me: why don't you just go away?!
the little voice: have me excorcised first.
me: duh!
the little voice: see? you can't! what a weakling.
me: you're wrong! i can! and i'm not a weakling. so get lost, get lost!
the little voice: i won't! i can't. i know you'll miss me like you miss the ones before me.
me: what?! what do you mean by that???
the little voice: sssssssshhhhhhh.... look! the moon's so big tonight. it's nice to look at, isn't it? i know it's just a crescent now, but it really looks big. haaaay...

what a little voice!


  1. i thought i was the_little_voice or the_comet nlng. ilisa nlng ang the_geemail to the_geeemail. nyahahaha. pero cute imo post. =)

    originally posted on 11.19.04 - 10:39 pm using Haloscan comment board

  2. oh mai! i forgot we baptised you the little voice! my mistake. i should have called my own little voice the small voice. as for the gEEEmail request, i can grant you that. i'm gonna do the necessary changes on the previous "the caterpillar story" posts soon. =D

    originally posted on 11.20.04 - 7:11 pm using Haloscan comment board

  3. psychotic gyud ka day. you schizo!

    originally posted on 11.22.04 - 6:50 pm using Haloscan comment board

  4. sealdz, what else could i be?

    originally posted on 11.23.04 - 12:31 am using Haloscan comment board

  5. aw, i wish i had a small/little voice of my own so it will remind of things i ought to do rather than just sitting staring at the horizon like a mental patient...

    originally posted on 11.28.04 - 9:54 pm using Haloscan comment board

  6. hehehe, the thought of sitting staring at the horizon like a mental patient amuses me!

    originally posted on 11.28.04 - 10:35 pm using Haloscan comment board


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