"a caterpillar doesn't just grow into a butterfly. a caterpillar must undergo metamorphosis, and a cocoon is where a caterpillar risks it all: enters total chaos, undergoes total rebuilding, and is born to a new way of living. only in taking the risk of entering that inert cocoon can the caterpillar go from dormancy to potency, from ugliness to beauty."

Thursday, September 30, 2004

something inspiring

on government service...

in this post, i'm making way for an excerpt of haydee yorac's response to ateneo de manila university during the 2004 special university convocation held last september 15, 2004.

even if i wasn't there, i feel like i was there because of this:

"Government service has been largely shunned by those who have options as to work. The pay is low, the work is heavy, government is perceived to be generally corrupt and incompetent, and there is too much interference by those who have nothing to do with the office.

But there are unseen rewards, not illegal or immoral, in government service. My work in the Commission on Elections for example, enabled me to see the distant provinces in the country and to interact with all sorts of people including the military, the warlords and the ordinary people. It was an experience more instructive than all the Political Science and Sociology courses I took in the university. It enabled me to understand why rules on elections did not seem to operate in many parts of the country; it caused me to know how to make the formal rules work. The bonus is seeing the beauty of the country such as watching the sun merge with the calm and quiet Sulu Sea during sunset.

I, therefore, encourage particularly the young people, especially those who are not burdened by family responsibility to spend three to five years in government. In this way, you do not leave the government largely in the hands of the mediocre and indifferent and the corrupt. We have no right to moralize, unless we help when given the chance.

We are living in a time of crisis.

The tendency is to be cynical or helpless. This is the beginning of despair that will surely make things worse and institutions spiral downward for the worse. It is precisely during these times that we should be determined to make things better, to dredge our reserve of strength and moral conviction to counter the down trend. It is the time to renew our faith and our hope that we can do better for our country. Not faith and hope in the abstract, but faith and hope founded on our commitment to work and do things for the better." -- Haydee B. Yorac, 2004 Ramon Magsaysay Awardee for Government Service

for those who are not quite familiar with the ramon magsaysay awards, they are a set of awards that honor the memory of the late president ramon magsaysay and are only given to "individuals and organizations in asia regardless of race, creed, sex, or nationality, who have achieved distinction in their respective fields and have helped others generously without anticipating public recognition".

i know i'm inspired when i feel better; and reading what i quoted above made me feel better. so there. i just had to share it. weeeeeeeeeee.


what color are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

"You are the color red. You are the most controversial of all the colors. You are often easily angered, but as easily as you got excited, you come down. When angered, do you have the tendency to be malicious? Afterwards, do you end up begging for forgiveness? Maybe. But you're incredibly generous, and, odd enough, needy. You love to hate, and sometimes, you hate to love. This color describes you as generally edgy. When in a bad situation, you're pessimistic, and when you're in a good situation, you're extremely optimistic. You're painfully temperamental, and sometimes it hurts the ones you love. But with an exciting and stimulating attitude, you enjoy talking to people and being social. But aside from your bold and outgoing attitude, you're attention-needing and attention-getting. This color is associated with lust and desire -- and you are both lust and desirous. You're a protective person when it comes to the people you love. You're incredibly sharp-witted and powerful (not to mention intelligent!)."

for the record, my favorite color is yellow (lemon yellow, to be specific), and NOT red. pffft. why can't i be yellow?

Tuesday, September 28, 2004

when the mind goes astray...

my current to-do-list:
(in chronological order)

1. find an ugly machete
2. prowl for the relevant files
3. call in the crazy and tolerant friends
4. perform the dirty job, annihilate stalkers
5. go back to plan A

aayyyyyyy wait! what is my plan A??? any suggestions?


a caterpillar idea

i wonder if the advertising think tanks of nike or adidas or fila ever thought of this for an ad: flash a picture of a quite pleasing-to-the-eye caterpillar, make the camera zoom-in on the caterpillar's numerous legs and voila!!!...you see different shoes that make you salivate and your eyes pop out!!! hahaha!

Sunday, September 26, 2004

some updates

number 1
a.k.a. the note

when i got back to my room in front of the kitchen last night, i saw the note my roommate left for me on top of my laptop, and it said:

interesting day today:

1. I went to this place that feels like the end of the world:
- it smells like garbage + pigshit
- no water source at all

2. my P1000 girbaud bag got slashed by a bastard, in a campus jeep ha! it's a good thing my bag has a lining so he wasn't able to get my phone + wallet. I confronted him! but my favorite bag is ruined! waaa. (story on Tuesday *smiles*)

roommate is in los baños. she spends her weekends there. so, the blow by blow account of her interesting saturday would have to wait until tuesday, when she gets back. knowing her, items #1 and #2 mentioned on her note would definitely be interesting(!) to hear about. sheesh. i can't wait.

i'm wondering what place she is talking about in item #1. she's been to places like payatas as part of her previous work, but she has never said anything like that about the places she's been to. she talks about the people though. hmmmm...where could that place be this time?

item #2 is quite alarming, and i have three reasons why (aside from the fact that we're talking about her favorite bag). first, because it happened in a campus jeep! second, because my roommate couldn't afford to lose her cellular phone nor her wallet. not now. third, because it happened on a weekend. hehehe... the third has something to do with "our" twisted way of thinking about murphy's law working on "us" during weekends (so, you can just overlook that, thanks).


number 2
a.k.a. the eyes

as planned, i went to the optical clinic yesterday to have my eyes checked. check up results say that the blurry sight of street lights and stuff last september 22 was due to a -500 vision-impaired left eye and a -275 defective right eye. hehehe, i think i'm going blind (ay! wag naman po sana! i'm just trying to appease myself the wicked way *winks*).

as usual, the doctor told me that due to the imbalance (read: the discrepancy between 500 and 275, tsk tsk), she couldn't prescribe lenses that could fully correct my vision. i would have to settle for a -350 lens on my left and a -225 lens on my right. otherwise, i would still be seeing oh so poorly: no better choice between blurred and double vision. well, it's just okay with me, i'm used to hearing such kind of stuff; it's the same thing the eye doctor in iligan told me eons ago.


number 3
a.k.a. the plug

the 2004 search for the ten outstanding students of the philippines (TOSP) will be on october 14 to october 21.

TOSP is an annual search that is aimed at recognizing filipino students who can be held as role models for others: students who exemplify academic excellence, exemplary leadership, good moral values, and determination to serve. 30 national finalists coming from all over the country will be brought together for a formation process focused on team and community building that will harness their potential to be catalysts for action and involvement.

celebrate... affirm... inspire...
some pictures taken during the 2003 search

during a break in the formation program at balai taal, tagaytay

whose hands are being held by whom's hands?

everyone's connected, we are interconnected

last year's 30 finalists at malacañang palace


number 4


yeah, i know, i know. it's on the 29th. gimingaw nakog tubig og lechon sa iligan! hahaha. that's all for now.

Saturday, September 25, 2004

seeing through naked eyes

my life, it seems, is literally a blur. it's not just when i wake up in the mornings, or when i go to bed at night. it happens every time i go about with my eyes unaided.

like some people i know, i am nearsighted.

20-20 vision left me during the early part of my freshman year in high school. that... i was aware of. however, i was such an obstinate being (i still am, by the way): i opted to live through high school with deteriorating eyesight. it was only during my freshman year in college that i had my eyes checked by a specialist. by then, my vision was already soooooooo poor: the left eye registered a -475 while the right registered a -50. ngerkz! what an imbalance!!! after the first trip to the eye doctor, i had to wear eyeglasses and adapted to living with the hassle of always keeping them with me, or see things blurred. now, my left eye still registers a -475 and the right registers -175. i've resorted to wearing contact lenses, but i still have a trusty pair of eyeglasses for emergencies and the like. sure they make me see better, but they never allow me to see with 20-20 vision clarity...only in my nice dreams.

...and the reason for this blog?

last september 22, my roommate and i went out to eat at mcdo philcoa because i was craving for a sundae (i told you i currently have an unexplained hunger/eating streak, which will never make me fat, anyway...pfft). we were already outside the dorm when i realized that, for the first time in i-already-lost-count days, i was going out without putting my contact lenses nor my eyeglasses on. i gazed up and saw the night sky with the stars in petty blur. i looked at the nearby street lights and all of them were badly out of focus. everything at a distance seemed to be fuzzy. squinting didn't help much, so i had to rely on weng (the roommate) to hail the right jeepney that would take us to philcoa. the blurred images that night made me feel sad.

to say the least, i can't help but be sad. i realized it has really become difficult for me to see the world clearly through my naked eyes. i miss 20-20 vision. i no longer remember how it feels to see with such clarity. buti pa kayo.

p.s. (1) yesterday, my second to the last pair of contacts got torn. it puzzles me how those plastics got torn because i've been extra careful with them. but then... now, i'm down to my last pair. that means: today, i need to visit the optical clinic again. oh well. that's just okay, i need to have my eyes checked again, anyway. (2) i lost the original draft of this post after my browser reported illegal operation(ba't hindi man lang ako binigyan ng time na maka-save?). pfft. what you're reading now is just a lame attempt at recovering the lost information. (3) thank you sealdi for the macapuno balls. touched kaayo ko. (hala, lata^!). i'm already sorely tempted to take you out of the list (*winks*).

Thursday, September 23, 2004

an accidental find

i was listening to a friend's radio blog when i encountered a song with lyrics impossible to ignore...

Some say love, it is a river that drowns the tender reed.
Some say love, it is a razor that leaves your soul to bleed.
Some say love, it is a hunger, an endless aching need.
I say love, it is a flower, and you its only seed.

It's the heart, afraid of breaking, that never learns to dance.
It's the dream, afraid of waking, that never takes a chance.
It's the one who won't be taken, who cannot seem to give
And the soul, afraid of dying, that never learns to live.

When the night has been too lonely, and the road has been too long,
And you think that love is only for the lucky and the strong,
Just remember in the winter, far beneath the bitter snows
Lies the seed that, with the sun's love, in the spring, becomes
the rose.
-- Bette Midler's The Rose

see what i mean?

bah! i'm really being lazy (or too busy?!). i cannot even make a post other than lyrics. hahaha! who cares? probably, only i do. pfft!

Tuesday, September 21, 2004

down with the syndrome

"If you wish success in life, make perseverance your bosom friend, experience your wise counselor, caution your elder brother and hope your guardian genius." --Joseph Addison

one of my fabled yoga-sleeping-positions: a closer look

i don't know what's with me lately, but i have a hunch. i've ruled out pre-menstrual syndrome, so this must be the caterpillar syndrome: i've been feeling lazy and always hungry even when i eat. i'm being deliberately baaaaaaaaaad, too. just a while ago, i picked on some people who unfortunately irked me. in fact, i was anticipating war and was even feeling enthusiastic at the mere thought of it. argh. life... i'm really cursed with a not-so-nice (read: n-a-s-t-y) temper! why am i having a hard time with it? and i thought i was succeeding at trying to grow up. tsk. cold water! cold water!

the silence is killing me. i need to be inspired so i can write and write and write.

i guess i have to go now. i must... before i wreak havoc in my own blog.

Sunday, September 19, 2004

some lyrics

Slow down you crazy child
You’re so ambitious for a juvenile
But then if you’re so smart tell me why
You are still so afraid?

Where’s the fire?
What’s the hurry about?
You better cool it off before you burn it out
You got so much to do and only so many hours in a day

But you know that when the truth is told
That you can get what you want or you can just get old
You’re gonna kick off before you even get halfway through
When will you realize? Vienna waits for you.

Slow down, you’re doing fine
You can’t be everything you want to be before your time
Although it’s so romantic on the borderline tonight
Too bad that is the life you lead

You’re so ahead of yourself that you forget what you need
Though you can see when you’re wrong but you can’t always see when you’re right
You got your passion, you got your pride
But don’t you know only fools are satisfied?

Dream on but don’t imagine they’ll all come true
When will you realize? Vienna waits for you.
Slow down you crazy child
Take the phone off the hook and disappear for a while

It’s alright you can afford to lose a day or two
When will you realize? Vienna waits for you...
--Billy Joel's Vienna

i heard that song last night when i watched the movie, 13 going on 30. i thought of putting the lyrics here because... for no other reason, i just want to! for me, it is a wonderful lullaby. i just know i could tolerate hearing it one more time because it's like having an older conscience that sings, hehehe. yeah, yeah, go ahead, you can call me a hopeless case. :P

p.s. i just know, too, that part of me is really still stuck in the 80's. =D

Friday, September 17, 2004


metro manila development authority's warning:
"walang tawiran. nakamamatay."
(no crossing. deadly.)

when i first saw that warning on huge bright pink sign boards put up by MMDA along metro manila's busy streets, i laughed. i somehow found them funny.

not anymore.

i've heard from a dorm wingmate that just recently, two ladies died when they got "sandwiched" between two buses along commonwealth avenue (near the iglesia ni cristo church, right in front of a huge "walang tawiran. nakamamatay." warning and near the overpass just outside UP).

tsk, tsk, tsk.

learn to heed warnings. they're not for naught.

that means... i should NOT dare cross EDSA again, no matter what the time of day, no matter what my confidence level is, no matter what...except via an overpass. bow.

Sunday, September 12, 2004


"I know your game and I'm tired of playing it. You are the supreme Radcliffe smart ass. The best. You put down anything in pants. But verbal volleyball is not my idea of a relationship. If that's what you think it's about, go back to your music wonks, and good luck. See, I think you're scared. You put up a wall to keep from getting hurt, but it also keeps you from getting touched. It's a risk, isn't it, Jenny? At least I had the guts to admit what I felt. Someday, you'll have to come up with the courage to admit you care." --from Erich Segal's Love Story

people seem to care a lot about me.

that's like a two-sided coin, right? on one side, it feels good to be looked after. on the other side, people go overboard by...uhm...pushing me to finally have a lovelife -- something which i really don't wanna go into just because of pressure. call me abnormal, i don't care... 'coz that's the way i am. and while i can do things about it, i won't (aws, shucks). so, to all my friends: with a kind smile, i appreciate the concern, but no, thank you. my lovelife (or its non-existence) is off limits, hehehe. if you really care and wanna be of help, then i beg you to just be silent while you wait and watch me fall and please (read: PLEASE!) don't squirm nor make a noise about it, or you'll spoil it for me. you people know me. the more you push me, the more you'll have difficulties in seeing me...uhm...budged?

here's what triggered this post...

just recently, i was subjected to the hotseat of my high school mailing list. an e-mail by my friend yoni (the innocent and clueless, no more) and my cinema buddy's reply started it all:

From: jyie...
Date: Sun Sep 5, 2004 2:18 am
Subject: daghan salamat val---

1. kay giubanan ko nimo adtong nipalit ko ug printer.
2. kay gilibre ko nimo ug breakfast &/or lunch (hehe!)

sori kung na late ka sa imong date with...(secret!) hehehe.
daghan salamat! =)

From: sealc...
Date: Sun Sep 5, 2004 3:43 am
Subject: Re: [ids99] daghan salamat val---

you mean, NAA NA LOVELIFE SI VAL---? hehehehehe.

and before i could even reply to those e-mails, all hell seemed to have broken loose.

From: tricky...
Date: Sun Sep 5, 2004 5:32 am
Subject: Re: [ids99] daghan salamat val---


From: haze...
Date: Sun Sep 5, 2004 7:43 am
Subject: Re: [ids99] daghan salamat val---

yehey val---!!!!!!!!!!

From: jyie...
Date: Sun Sep 5, 2004 8:20 am
Subject: daghana nagreact oi

ayan val--- daghan nuon nagreact
sori wa jud nako gituyo
sealdi grabe ka maka interpret
kabalo baya ka dapat asa si val---
you being floormates and all
anyway val--- fix this hehe
wa pa ka kauli noh
hilom pa man gud ka

around after the time that last e-mail was posted, i was already online and back in front of the computer. the defensive being in me made this reply:

From: jr3...
Date: Sun Sep 5, 2004 11:38 am
Subject: Tymsa!

ka-riot ba...

wala koy lovelife no. pero pagnaa na, ingnon ta mo.

ang ka-date nga gi mean ni yoni kay akong biological father og akong biological brother nga tua sa makati, owkey. yoni, kindly back me up on this.

and the exchange went on...

From: jyie...
Date: Sun Sep 5, 2004 12:01 pm
Subject: t A y m S a d A w

ka date ni val--- iya papa...
diba somewhat same gihapon ang meaning...
riot gihapon ang pipol...

From: haniko...
Date: Sun Sep 5, 2004 10:56 pm
Subject: Re: [ids99] daghana nagreact oi

hala manash...gi-construe man gud nimo sa taman taman si val---...ikaw ang nag-instigate sa mga repapips na mag-wonder sa lablyp ni val---...

hoist katwin valen...what's the real score ba ha? oist kung tinuod na nagpakabayot napud ka, val--- dahlin, ug dili na ka ganahan sa csi (meaning cynical singles incorporated)...FINE! ehehehehehehe burak daw ka ingon ni tricky ay.... bwehehehhehehemooooo

From: ilian...
Date: Mon Sep 6, 2004 3:43 am
Subject: Re: [ids99] t A y m S a d A w

"ka date ni val--- iya papa..."
mao gani... nagdate lagi siya with her PAPA. kinsa imo Papa karon Val? Dato? Ayaw jud sugot ug pubre. Mag-economic crisis na biya ang 'Pinas. hehehehe.

From: jr3...
Date: Mon Sep 6, 2004 3:57 am
Subject: Re: t A y m S a d A w

aguy noy... bantog siguro hangtod karon wala koy lovelife kay sige ko ninyo unhan... INGNAN WALA LAGI LOVELIFE. (kapoy bya emphasize ana...) og dili dato akong amahan. hahay.

mga chismis pipol jud kaayo mo ba, hahahaha...mokalit ra mog post dinhi pag naay chismis, heheheh.

From: sealc...
Date: Mon Sep 6, 2004 6:16 am
Subject: Re: [ids99] Re: t A y m S a d A w

kahinanglan na ka pangitaan ug uyab val...hapit na ka mag-24. diba ana ka sa amoa sa una, dapat maminyo na ka ana na time?

remember, "80% of women who say they are too busy to have a lovelife are actually lonely."

From: jr3...
Date: Mon Sep 6, 2004 7:40 am
Subject: Re: t A y m S a d A w

pagkabam! saon na lang jud ni... mga incriminating quotes.

shucks shucks.

From: haniko...
Date: Mon Sep 6, 2004 9:29 pm
Subject: Re: [ids99] Re: t A y m S a d A w

I agree with you manash na "80% of women who say they are too busy to have a love life are actually lonely." pero happy ko kay dili ko apil ana nga statistics...didto ko sa 20%...mwehehehehehhehe...well kung madcow na ka...dili na nimo kelangan ang lablyp daba....:) hehehehhehe

believe me, kulit...:) pero since ikaw kulit kay naigo...pangita na oi...time is running out na baya...heheheheheh...kasabot ko na tamilian kaayo ka...basta kung kinsa ang tinitibok ng puso mo... sunggaban mo na...ehehhehe (bahala pa kinsa siya...puwera diay kung naa na asawa...mahirap na.:P) ...

... unya ang instigator sa tanan...hoist yoni bata...how is da you?ikaw ha...criminal mind jud ka...ikaw man gud...awa...napag-usapan na tuloy si val--- kulit...heheheh...mistake of facts diay to val---...:)

From: jr3...
Date: Mon Sep 6, 2004 10:34 pm
Subject: the hotseat

oist! kamong mga tawhana mo, dili jud ko ninyo love kay inyo na ko gitabangan. hahahaha! makabuyong man mo oi. bantay lang jud mo ba, friends kaayo ta ba. magstart na lang tingali ko sa akong to-murder-list, ala kill bill list... pero in dilemma ko kay dili ko kabalo kung unsa nga sequence akong sundon (i.e. kinsa'y una, kinsa'y
last...save the best for last man daw). kinsa pa may gusto maapil sa listahan? the more, the better. the better, the cooler. i'm waiting so i can note things down.

peeps, sensyahan sa kalat sa inyong mailboxes. si yoni man gud,
hehehe... the innocent-and-clueless-looking yoni made waves.

From: tricky...
Date: Mon Sep 6, 2004 11:33 pm
Subject: Re: [ids99] Re: t A y m S a d A w

kurata gud! si val--- na inyong pa-pangitaon??? pagkabam! hehehe!

From: superman...
Date: Tue Sep 7, 2004 7:21 am
Subject: Re: [ids99] the hotseat

valyntong wa man kaw mag-saba na na day ka "papapa" diha! basin estudent na nimo hah?!?

day val--- saon nga dman makatuo ang mga pipol nga naka "papa" na gud hehe.

From: jyie...
Date: Tue Sep 7, 2004 9:30 am
Subject: hoy mga warfreak !!! =)

grabe karon ra nako nabasa inyong..uhm..violent reactions.

so this all my fault,huh?cool. =)

first of all,i'm innocent. read my post(again).haha! si val--- mismo niingon nga wala may mali sa akong message. nalingaw baya nuon ko kay daghan nagreact. abi nako dead na pud ang group. wala lang.

anyway, ayaw ninyo awaya si val--- bah, hehe! magkaworld war unya :s

From: haniko...
Date: Tue Sep 7, 2004 9:01 pm
Subject: Re: [ids99] hoy mga warfreak !!! =)


anader by the by yoni...katong innocent inducement na imong gihimo...well oh well...kung hulamon nato ang words ni manang shaldee: "nagmake jud (sic) ug waves"...lingaw jud ning dili nimo ginatuyo bah?heheheh

wala man giaway sa world si val---...actually, magcelebrate gani ta kung naa na jud ni siya lablayp (maging sino man ang partner niya hehehehe). kaya lang todo deny ang lola natin kaya ala na tayong magawa...sha na yun eh...basta en dyu taym magkalablayp lagi ni siya ug ibutang jud niya sa fwendster ang ilang firsts like first holding hands (na niglast ug 48 years), ang ilang first eye contact (na naglast ug 50 minutes walay kurap kurap sa mata...dayon en de end...nagkasore eyes lang silang duha) etc etc etc

o sige....byers...la napud pulos akong mga gipangyawit...i bet sulungon na jud ko ni katwin valen...

and as if all those weren't enough, sealdi posted this on her blog:
"but really miss vawenkatwine aka caterpillar, if you do think about it, "80% of women who say that they are too busy to have a relationship are actually lonely..." hmmmm...a lot of people reacted over the mailing list re: your love life. so we're waiting if you do get your deadline of getting married by the age of 24. you're 21 now...and unfortunately, the object of your affections has proven to be more of a moron than you actually thought. hehehehe."

sealdz, you're meeeeeeeeeeeean ...and you know that (as well as "i know you. you know you. i know that you know that i know you", quoting ben stiller in dodgeball).

you're on the list, no doubt about it (wicked grin).

by the way, thanks for this:

From: sealc...
Date: Tue Sep 7, 2004 10:36 pm
Subject: Re: [ids99] Re: t A y m S a d A w

yoni, dapat lagi dili "PAPA" imo gigamit na word kay nahimo na au ug mainstream ang gay lingo-derived meaning sa papa. from now on, kung papa as in father imo ginamean...gamita na ug AMAHAN.

but that does not change things though... you're still definitely on the list.

Friday, September 10, 2004

stuck in the beginning...

the creative minds behind the caterpillar story acknowledge the special albeit involuntary participation of...


a.k.a the wanted
the schizophrenic. the political analyst-slash-would-be-lawyer with a thousand and one aliases. the grudge that came to life. the mad cow disease-infected. the tongue on fire. angel and devil rolled into one. the bayot from pluto. the CEO (chief executive officer) of CSI (cynical singles, incorporated). the brain behind hello billy, the story you thought you knew. the reason behind the grand plan of putting up an overpass connecting philcoa and cagayan de oro.


a.k.a. the shrinking lover
everybody's friend, nobody's lover. mr. congeniality. the breathing and walking community calendar. the businessman. the troubleshooter. the drunken master.


a.k.a. the mommy
the wanted's mommy and long lost sister (go figure!). the geemail's lola. the caterpillar's once-upon-a-time seatmate and storyteller. the voracious reader.


a.k.a. the borax-faced boy
little boy blue. the cute and not-so-freaky boy ghost in ju-on a.k.a. the grudge.


a.k.a. the crawling ghost
the freaky white-faced, bloodied mother of toshio. also of the ju-on a.k.a. the grudge fame.

so-hee and jin-sung

a.k.a. the ballerinas
the not-even-death-can-separate-them schoolgirls. the best friends. the wishing stairs beauties: so-hee, the dead super ballerina and jin-sung, the second-rate trying hard ballerina. the original cast's weird partymates last february 14.

achilles & hector

a.k.a the demi-god and the prince.
the envy of puss in boots. hehehe. walang kokontra.

the ugly bolo & the yellow ribbon

a.k.a the assassin's weapon of choice
and the vain victim's decoration request

the assassin's "ugly-looking bolo" and imelda marcos' suggestion of tying a yellow ribbon as a means of making the ugly bolo look presentable: the volcano and the caterpillar's favorite joke from the documentary, imelda.

the sticky floors

a.k.a. the peek and scream venue
can be simply described as: any of those moviehouses in *toot* *toot* with sticky floors. (the floors are sticky because of who knows what! hehehe.)

Tuesday, September 07, 2004

in the beginning...

presenting the original cast of the caterpillar story...

ilian and rowcey

a.k.a the entity
if one cannot be, the other cannot be.


a.k.a. the little prince
the geek. the best in science. the hoax-buster. the tech-wiz and tech-support authority. the rose's co-entity. the sub-entity.


a.k.a. the rose
the nerd. the best in math. miss sexy. miss consciousness. the small girl with the foreign accent. the paradox. the little prince's rose and co-entity. also the sub-entity. (additional info: probably the only rose propagated from a violet!)


a.k.a. the volcano
kinilaw. the ranting slave-slash-anyone but the boss. the girl with the kindergarten name. the woman from mars and from venus. the original freak. the caterpillar's cinema buddy. the dangerous influence.


a.k.a. the geemail
little miss innocent and clueless... no more. the little voice. the occasionally irritated sweet shrieker. the angelic-looking thin lass.


a.k.a. the caterpillar
this blog's pagemaster. the 24/7 babbler. the temperamental thrillseeking shrieker. the seemingly bossy unbridled sarcastic. the hopeless romantic passing off as a cynic.

more raves

"from the producer of Hello Billy (the acclaimed film about androgyny and its perils) and the much celebrated Movie Mayhem: Peek and Scream (a documentary on the experiences and lifestyles of the horror-genre fanatics) comes this quaint story..."
--the entity

"about a geek, a nerd, some hostile shrieking freaks and self-confessed anti-social beings and their unforeseen bizarre reunion that led to a non-Darwinian evolution...
THE CATERPILLAR STORY: a tale with undetermined ending."

--from the author's desk

Sunday, September 05, 2004


"from the jungles of IDS to the canopies of acacia trees in diliman...
a tale of intrigue, passion, and epic proportions (hahahaha)...

THE CATERPILLAR STORY (the delayed and long-awaited chronicles of the little prince, the rose, the entity, the volcano, the geemail, and the grudge...but always the talkative caterpillar)"


egad! epic proportions?! now i have to come up with a story that will live up to that pitch. poor me. poor little me.

p.s. (1) belated happy 6th monthsary to the entity. (2) maybe i should forget about writing the caterpillar story with epic proportions and just strangle sealdi. (3) no, i should not. the world needs her. (4) i used pictures of the mad cow a.k.a the grudge without her consent; i'm baaaaaaaaaadd.

Saturday, September 04, 2004


"It's better to be known by six people for something you're proud of than by 60 million for something you're not." --Albert Brooks

question: how many val---s are there in the world?
answer: i don't know.

a search using google told me there are other val---s in the world...

there's val--- with the deviantart account (an artist at heart eh?). val--- the 50th level sorcerer (uhm...a magician?). val--- the fashion model (ow?). val--- manufacturing company. val--- at find a grave (must be dead?). val---, track and field star. val--- the swimming scholar. val--- the cancer patient who went for wigs. val--- the broker. val--- the missing classmate. val--- the lost alumna. val--- the guardian of the enchanted apple of oz (the whaaaat?). val--- the hairstylist (cooool!). there's also dr. val---, head geneticist lending her expertise to an experimental research program for genetic animal branding (astig!). val--- the elf with pointed ears and crystal green eyes (sounds nice, ehehehe). val--- the newborn (uuuwaaaaa!). val--- the ballroom performer (uh huh?). there's even a sis. val---! whoa whoa whoa...

...and i thought my name was unique! thank you google for cold-heartedly killing one of my illusions.

but hey! i still have a consolation: my complete baptismal name is still unique... that is as far as checking google is concerned, hahaha, good luck!

"Since the beginning of time never has there been another with my mind, my heart, my eyes, my ears, my hands, my hair, my mouth. None that came before, none that live today, and none that come tomorrow can walk and talk and move and think exactly like me. All men are my brothers yet I am different from each. I am a unique creature." --Og Mandino

got that?

bottom line: they can have my name, but they can never ever be me. (...nor can i ever be them.)

Friday, September 03, 2004


"every face has a story"

the first poster for the caterpillar story.
abangan! (murag true!)
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