"a caterpillar doesn't just grow into a butterfly. a caterpillar must undergo metamorphosis, and a cocoon is where a caterpillar risks it all: enters total chaos, undergoes total rebuilding, and is born to a new way of living. only in taking the risk of entering that inert cocoon can the caterpillar go from dormancy to potency, from ugliness to beauty."

Thursday, March 23, 2006

blame pablo

"Tonight I can write the saddest lines.
Write, for example,'The night is shattered
and the blue stars shiver in the distance.'
The night wind revolves in the sky and sings..."

-- Pablo Neruda

tonight is your last night for tomorrow i'll let go. it's weird that i don't seem to miss you anymore eventhough part of me still wants to. it's easier to let go now. i'm no longer afraid to lose what i never had. i don't have to cry, there will be no tears for me to shed. the world has shown me a million smiles -- maybe they're all yours, maybe they're all reflections of mine. who cares if they're yours? i don't... well, at least, not in that way that i used to. i guess it's the right time. i feel some sense of peace. every memory i was able to keep from what i can now call 'so long ago' shall stay with me. i don't have to throw them away nor leave them behind so i can forget. i know now that they won't hurt me like i once naively thought they would. you, you can't be with me. that's not anymore the saddest thing i've ever known. you made your choice. i am ready to forge mine. without bitterness. without pain. without sadness. with a hope. i hope this is right, i hope i'm not lying.

p.s. you're still my friend.


  1. kadumdum na nuon ko adtong gainom ta adtong december ug nahubog ka. pirmi ka ug pamalikas about ana. hehehehe.

  2. gEEEmail, you're not so lost as you think. :)

    theVolcano, ows nag-inom ta? :P hahaha...

    i still know the things i said.

    abaniko, you think so? salamat sa hugs, migo.

  3. "I'm no longer afraid to lose what I never had."

    What makes your blog unique: the polished writing style, the quotations starting each and every entry (where do you get them?!), and the customization of the blogspot template. (writer and techie both at same time, im impressed)

  4. kars, hi! i will not sigh. hehe... angas ba?

    there are feelings that just won't die nor go away but there are also realities to face and accept. ;)

    krislan, wow!!! thanks a lot for the compliment(s). you called me a techie! that's so nice of you. :)

    i usually get the quotes from the quote garden (see my sidelinks). i search for them there. there are also times when i'm able to simply recall a quotable line or two from somewhere -- then i search the Net (to make sure that i reflect the right quote and/or the right author in my entries).

  5. "hay..." na lang sad ako. parehas ming kars.:)

  6. BabyPink, sige, you get to react with a "hay..." :D hi!

  7. i really love your blog... it is cute...

  8. monmon, thanks.

    trick, "kinsa diay to siya, val?" "tag-ana na lang gud" grrrr... pahamak, hahaha.


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